Tonight at mass our Psalm was the most heart-rending one I know … it brings me to tears. From Psalm 22:1:
My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?
We also read the passion from Mark’s gospel. I’ve always been interested in the way people view Jesus’ repeating those words as He hung on the cross:
And at three o’clock Jesus cried out in a loud voice, Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani? which is translated, My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? (Mark 15:34)
My friend Rachel thinks that He knew people listening would recognize those words from the well-known Psalm; that it would have pointed them back and helped them realize that He was fulfilling scripture. I agree with that.
I’ve heard others say that when Jesus cried those words, our Father had, indeed, turned His face away from Jesus because Jesus had taken on the sin of all mankind and “a holy God can’t be in the presence of sin.”
I disagree with that one; if the Holy Spirit dwells within me, then He is certainly in the presence of sin.
Personally, what strikes me is that once again Jesus is showing He is completely human, experiencing all of the things we experience.
When I went through my own dark night of the soul, I also could not perceive God near me. He seemed so far away, as if He had turned His face from me … as if He had abandoned me.
I know He didn’t … maybe He has never been closer to me than during that time. But in the midst of that trial, it didn’t feel like it.
I know our Father was close to Jesus, grieving His pain. But in the moment, Jesus couldn’t perceive our Father.
Our Lord and Savior knows … really and personally and intimately He knows … what it’s like to be “us.”
To me, that is amazing.