I have always felt like a bit of a freak whenever I hear a news story about someone brutally abusing others. Whether it is a murderer who tortured victims or a dictator who murders his own people, like others around me I am horrified by how evil man can be and I am heartbroken for the suffering the victims endured.
But as soon as the discussion turns toward the person who committed the evil and I hear comments like, “he deserves to fry!” or “get rid of this waste of human life!” my heart also aches for that person.
I don’t have a romantic idea that the person isn’t “that bad” or that he didn’t truly, deliberately choose evil. I don’t “like” the person or imagine that he will ever change his ways; I don’t want him free to go on harming others. I want him put away.
But I don’t wish evil back on him; I don’t wish him to suffer or to have his life taken. And I don’t rejoice with his death, even the assassination of someone like Osama Bin Laden. I feel great sadness over such events.
I have been pondering the life of St. Therese of Lisieux. She was led to pray for those who chose evil and were unrepentant, feeling compassion for their lost souls. I am fascinated by this, and wonder if this may be the type of prayer ministry the LORD has in mind for me.
I believe every person on this earth was meant for God; He didn’t create any to be lost though we are free to reject Him. Maybe that is why God made me to be a freak – to feel compassion for those who chose evil – so someone (me?) will pray for them, that they may repent and experience God’s mercy.
Even as I was pondering all of this, I read a passage in 1 Samuel 30:21-25 that made me laugh out loud. How perfectly it fits these thoughts this morning! Coincidence? I think not!
“When David came to the two hundred men who had been too exhausted to follow him, whom he had left behind at the Wadi Besor, they came out to meet David and the men with him. As David approached, he greeted them. But all the greedy and worthless among those who had accompanied David said, “Since they did not accompany us, we will not give them anything from the plunder, except for each man’s wife and children.” But David said: “You must not do this, my brothers, after what the LORD has given us. The LORD has protected us and delivered into our hands the raiders that came against us. Who could agree with this proposal of yours? Rather, the share of the one who goes down to battle shall be the same as that of the one who remains with the baggage—they share alike.” And from that day forward he made this a law and a custom in Israel, as it still is today.”
Dear God, help me to remember those who were too exhausted to follow you. Even though they turned away, chose evil, rejected you … still, you created them in Your image and You “will everyone to be saved and to come to knowledge of the truth” (1 Tim 2:4) Show me “the little way” of St. Therese; continue to teach me how to pray even for the most lost souls; please fill my heart with compassion for the most difficult to love and use me as a vessel of Your mercy. In the name of Jesus with the Holy Spirit, I pray!